Thursday

Liam and I met Melissa and her babies at Panera for lunch. It is getting harder now to take Liam out to eat. He hates being in his car seat and also hates being held. He wants to be independent. I think it's funny to see how frustrated he gets when he can't do something because he is still to small, like walking, talking, jumping, eating real food. He trying to talk all the time now, but all that comes out are lion roars or loud squeals. I of course understand exactly what he is saying. I love meeting Melissa for lunch because I don't see her that often and we usually can talk for a long time. Now this has gotten harder with 3 babies. I think the next time we do it, I should bring lunch to her.
After lunch Liam and I ran to the mall to find something to wear for the weekend. I bought a dress that is super cute, but once I got it home didn't like it as much. That seems to always happen.

Later on that night I ran to the Kroger by my house for some tortillas. This was a mistake. I hate this grocery store with a passion. Every single person in there looked scary and gross. The floors are scuffed up and dirty and the food is always rotten. I had to dig for tortillas that were't expired. Once I found them I went to the U scan and waited in line. While waiting I was watching all the nastiness that surrounded me. This one family I couldn't take my eyes off. The mother looked like she weighted about 80lbs and her daily diet was either crystal meth or crack. Her back was all shinny from her new huge tattoo. She also had one on her face. She was a looker. She had 2 kids, a boy and a girl. The little girl was riding in the cart with no shoes. I couldn't help but notice that her feet and legs were filthy. Her hair was ratted and her clothes were dirty. My anger started to bubble and my head started to get hot. The boy looked around 7 or 8 and was very hyper. The mother kept yelling at him in the most horrible manner. The items in their cart consisted of Pepsi and 2 huge hunks of meat. As I'm watching this the thought pops into my head that I could take her in a fight. I just wanted to go up to her and punch her in the face. As my anger was starting to boil over her boyfriend,pimp, or baby daddy comes up to her. He was huge. My desire to confront her didn't fade but I also didn't want to die at Kroger at Linwood Square. I watched them in the parking lot load up their rusted out SUV and contemplated on getting the plate number so I could call CPS. I just sucked it up and left. I know that these people are in the world and Kevin sees this everyday. It breaks my heart. Something like this would have made me mad before I had Liam, but now it seems to effect me more. I can't forget about it but I am choosing to ignore it. I just will never go to that Kroger again.